I was depressed. That is to say I was suffering from long term chemically induced depression. I didn't know it. I mean I sort of knew it, but didn't know to call it depression. I just knew that inside I didn't feel like me. Depression is hard to explain if you've never felt it. If you haven't felt it then I hope you never do 'cause it kinda sucks.
Wheat seems to have been the cause of my depression. I looked around and found several articles on the subject. Depression is not an uncommon side effect of a wheat intolerance. I know that as the allergen left my system it was like someone turned a light on in my brain. The fog lifted and it was like "wow!". I have energy and focus and clarity. I don't have to fake anything just to get by.
Not faking it is a big thing for me. I'm a balloon artist. I have to be happy and energetic. I had to fake that and faking it is exhausting.
Several other changes in my life in the week since I last posted. those get their own posts.